Why I feel the need to situate myself under the lights

It’s called the suspension of disbelief… where anything and everything is possible… anything you can dream or think or imagine… it all happens quite naturally under the lights… it is a place to forget about everything except for right now… everything you ever thought or knew or remembered is compressed into a single moment… when the lights penetrate the darkness you can finally think… there is clarity. there is space. there is air… you can relive any time or place… you can be anyone.. you can be no one. you can disappear, be invisible, be everywhere, be nowhere… you can melt into the floor, looking up into the lights wrapped in darkness… this is a place to forget… to be forgotten… to feel a thousand sighs of relief for no reason at all… yes, under the lights, that’s the only place that it is possible to not give a damn what’s going to happen next, because you already know…